One Love Country Yoga

Seeing Through the Eyes of Mother Goddess of Compassion

We love you! Our love for you is as constant as the stars above!

My little girl Melissa and I were watching the Rapunzel movie last week. This was the message Rapunzel discovered on the paint blush from her parents.

I thought I was all alone Rapunzel cried as she finally united with her king father.

My tears flowed down. I heard the inner voice: You know this is the story of you. This is the story of every human being. Its time for you to tell what you experienced a year ago.

Yes, after a year clearing of my beliefs, now I choose to share my experience at the Manitoulin Island last summer with you.

"Who Are You?"

"Who are you?" It had been 2 month since I studied with my teacher Triz Remedios. She kept asking me this question.

"I'm love. I'm light." I answered without total conviction, so I asked her: "You're my teacher. Can you tell me who am I?"

One day during our session. She paused for a few moments, leaning back to her chair. I sensed she was listening some information coming in. Then she leaned forward towards me:

"Oh, its obvious. You're a conduit for the Mother realm."

"Who is in the Mother realm?" I asked. This was just so new to me.

"Mother Mary, Mother Teresa, Kuanyin ..."

I was still quite lost. Without any religion upbringing, I don't know much about any of the Mothers she mentioned.

With my East background, I thought Kuanyin would be a way to start. I got home and Googled Kuanyin. I read the Kuanyin's story, and listened Kuanyins mantra from the YouTube.

My heart heated up, and my tears just flooded down - my heart was so touched by Kuanyins unconditional forgiveness & love.

Kuanyin means who hears the cries of people. She is kind like Mother Mary of the East.

With my open heart, I was stepping into my very first ceremony (a prayer to our deepest large self) / inner journey with my teacher Triz and 6 other amazing women, 4 days journey on the Manitoulin Islands.

As I had decided to join the ceremony on Manitoulin Islands with my total self, the gifts from the universe just kept coming in:

Before the trip I saw a white cloud triumphant elephant in the sky, I looked up: a sign of blessings, and remover of all blocks.

For the preparation of the ceremony, my teacher Triz, cleared and balanced my energy field. I was most taken after she cleared up heart center. I felt the warm flow there for days. Triz also asked me to blow the Peruvian vessels. My 3^rd eye warmed up and opened.

My husband kindly suggested to me to take a 5 days trip instead of 2 days as I had planned.

My little girl who she had never left me for a single night, just gave me her kisses and hugs, and then let me go, as my kind neighbor Tim drove me to Abby's office.

The ceremony started 3 days before I got to the island. Even I was at home. I could feel it, especially around my 3^rd eye area. I could feel the other 4 woman already there in the circle. The day before my trip, the image of Jesus came to me briefly. I didnt know if it's just from my imagination.

Abby gave me the car ride to the island, and filled me with her powerful songs. We stopped over night at Louises house. When I was almost falling sleep, I noticed my energetic body was floating over the bed. I remembered Triz told me to grounding deep down to the earth. That helped me to sleep the first night away from my little girl.  Later Abby told me she was singing a mantra silently, it came so strong, so as the energy from the circle that night as Triz told us later.

We arrived on the island. I stepped into the center of the circle of crystal formation, and the center of my being.

The 2^nd day on the island, my 3^rd eye opened more. A vision of Shiva - the destroyer of illusion, and who also brought yoga to earth came to me first. Then right after, I saw a deer, with such kind and gentle eyes were looking directly into my soul. It was so clear and lasted. Now I knew these were not from my imaginations.

I asked the ladies: is it because I sit on the Abby's seat?

"It's You!" the ladies in the circle answered very clearly.

On our dinner table, Triz with her keen awareness looked toward me and said:

"Look who is here. Mother Goddess is here with us!"

I didn't know how to think of that. I felt somewhat a bit embarrassed. I was still a shy and small Wen as I knew her that way for all my life.

Abby gave me her beautiful pink crystal Kuanyin to meditate on. Holding the Kuanyin statue, from my 3^rd eye, I saw so many arms came out from her one body.

A gentle whisper came to me:

"Every person on earth is like one of my arms, with its unique gift, the same time are all growing out from one body."

I opened my eyes and put down the statue to join the other women. As I was putting down the statue, I saw Kuanyin energetic form just came right into my heart.

Triz laughed: "I guess Wen can't put Kuanyin down now!" 

My mind still had its doubts -how could that be?  I asked Kate if she could tell me what she sees. Kates 3^rd eye is always wide opened. I wanted to hear her version of me.

That what I saw: at the beginning of time, a woman with the flowing oriental robe, riding on a mighty dragon, coming down from the heaven to earth to help all the children on the Earth

Oh, that's Kuanyin. However my mind still kept it's doubts - how could Kate only see me as Kuanyin.  She must be influenced by Triz.

The next morning, as I was thinking about to talk to Melanie, to learn her sensitive way to follow the subtle energy. Facing the rising sun, I started to do yoga spontaneously, and sounded out the sound in the body, to open up the tight areas. I experienced awakening of Kundalini. I met my deepest SELF face to face.

A butterfly came and circled around me, then gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"A sign of transformation!" My teacher Triz said, and then she invited me to fly with her.

"Where do you want to go?" She asked.

"Let's see the galaxy" I answered. A few moments later, I didnt see anything. I just felt my body getting colder. We stopped as the other women were getting up now.

Triz told Kate I saw the rising of the serpent, but didn't see anything as we travelled.

"Oh, everything there is moving very fast." Kate smiled to me kindly.

In the afternoon, as I was in the hot tub with Elaine. There was such an urge for me to go travel. I focused on my 3^rd eye, with my physical body still in the hot tub, my astral body travelled. It went through layers of dimensions of vortex. I followed my intuition to take me, to choose which vortex to go in. I ended up on a pink light land. A land of love, I saw kuanyin's light being there as well. I just knew this is my soul's home.

One woman there was aware the Kuanyin energy in me. She asked the Mother Goddess to help letting go more of her emotion body. As I put my palms between her body near the navel, I felt the strong electric energy pouring through me. My hands, my arms, my shoulders were shaking.

Afterwards I looked my palms, I saw the opening lotus flowers on my palms. I thanked my friend for her trust. She helped me - my 3^rd prayer had just been answered. I came to the ceremony with 3 prayers: (1) Who Am I? (2) Who is the Source/ the Light? (3) May I have lotus palms to serve?

That night we were in the ceremony till 3:00am. My 3^rd eye opened even more. As I went to bed at the dark night, I saw brilliant bright white light with my physical eyes closed.

Here came the last day of the ceremony. When I sat in the circle thats what I saw:

Heart, Heart and Hearts everywhere!!!

I saw a pairs of beautiful wings on a woman who thought she couldnt fly;  I saw a woman as a ladder brings Heaven to earth; I saw a woman like a big bird fly high and strong in the sky; I saw a woman as a beautiful plant fairy and a Mermaid; I saw a woman with her song cleared up another woman's ancestor line.

Triz sat in the center of the circle. I looked at the center, and saw a fully opened lotus flower with the pure light radiant out.

Triz and the other women in the circle said together: "That's You!" 

Then as Triz passed her gifts to one woman - I saw every gifts passing through were pink and green light the colours of our hearts. It's the same colours I see from the sun.

Here I was, at the last day of the ceremony, all I saw was HEART, Heart, Heart, Heart everywhere, Pink and Green colours, and Beauty. All I felt was LOVE, and to server for all humanity.

Before we left the Island, Triz and Kate asked me: "How did you do that?"

Although my mind still couldn't comprehend the whole thing, I answered: gentleness and kindness is my nature.

Then I sang a song. I had been singing it a lot when I decided to come for the trip:

"Not as fragrance as a flower, not as tall as a tree, I'm just a no one noticed little grass. My friends are stretched to every corners of sky and ocean" A song from my uncle - to me he is like a laughing Buddha. He sang this song when I was visiting home last time. The song reminded me of well, I'm just a little grass I'm not any more special than anyone else.

I'm so blessed to study with my amazing teacher Triz who has incredible gifts, such as sounds, subtle energy and making sacred geometry alive with cystals ... I'm so grateful for the 7 women in the circle who all shared their amazing gifts and held the space for me.

When I got home, I was welcomed with 7 fresh picked flowers and the balloons one was heart shaped.

I sat down with my 5yr old girl Melissa in my arms. She hugged me again and again.

"Mama, That's what I saw..."

She draw on our drive way with a white chalk.

She drew a heart, and a heart and a heart, then she wrote Mom.

She saw exactly what I saw!!!

Then she drew this heart. Thats what just I understood on the island, opening heart is our wings to fly.

"Guess what I saw in my dream?"

She drew again,while she told me:

"A baby who was scared. There was a frightening bat there. Then 7 angles came to circled around the baby with their magic. The bat retuned into a pretty bow. The baby is happy, and not scared any more."

Melissa continued:

"Guess what else I dreamed last night - I was lost and scared. Then I pumped into someone. I looked up it was Kuanyin Pusha. She took me home!"

By now, my eyes watered. This is incrediable! Even though Melissa was home. A part of her was with me all along!!! Space can't separate us !!!

The Mother Goddess Kuanyin sent her message to us through my little girl - Mother Goddess is here to help all of us to find our home!!!

Kuanyin has a great compassion vow that she won't leave the earth until the last person on earth is freed from sufferings.

My whole life I had believed I was an unwanted child. I had been trying very hard to justify my existence trying to be a good perfect girl, constant seeking approval and love from others. I was so shy and sensitive before yoga came to my life. Now as I was giving these enormous gifts. I was having such hard time to accept it - was this enormous gift really for me? How did Mother Goddess come down to express her energy through my little body? How could I really be that - I AM?

Wen, you need to take more space. Stand tall and strong on your feet. My teacher and my family of hearts have been there to help me letting go of my old way of thinking of how small I am. The boxes of boxes of tissue papers were there to clear my tears & the stuff came out from my body.

Meanwhile, there are celestial music I can hear often from out of nowhere (or from the kingdom) to accompany me as I am clearing.

I began to aware some of my inner guildes - My guidance Angel Joy who comes to me as diamond light; my soul/ spirit comes to me as white light to my 3^rd eye; Mother Goddess Kuanyin comes to me as pink light.

(I took this picture on Aug 28, 2011.   Can you see the pink light?!)

Now I know I am never alone. The love from the kingdom is as constant as the stars above. They never judge me, from their eyes they only see beauty and love. Whether I'm aware or not, they're always sending out love to me.

I also know they're the deep much larger part of me, a deathless part of me, a larger reality part of me. We're One.

Some of my old habit thinking patterns haven't disappeared yet. They still come like my old royal friends. But now I can look direct into them without feeling powerless.

Hello, my old friend. Here you are again.

I can choose to shine the light of awareness from my Heart of Being, from my root, my true home, my kingdom, where there is no worries, no fear, no judgement, only understanding, peace, only love, only bliss.

I can choose moment by moment to live from my heart of being instead of powerless run the life by my habit thinking patterns.

I'm tasting the sweetness nectar of knowing who am I. Awaking is really the end of sufferings.

Today a year later, I choose to accept my gifts. I know I am worth to receive them.

Today I choose to share my experience, my story with you, because I knew its your story too. From our deepest self. There is no boundaries between you & I.  We're one- One Love.

"How did you feel when you experienced rising of Kundalini? " You may ask.

It was a such immense blessing, the same time I felt so familiar. I feel I'm home finally.

"What exactly did you see as you faced your SELF?"you may ask.

Here it is:

This is me. This is you. This is us!

From my heart to yours,

Aug 19, 2011

~ Wen